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The sweet gift of synchronicity

  • Posted on October 25, 2011 at 8:40 pm

I was given a gift yesterday; a reminder actually…

You see, today was my daughter’s birthday, and as is tradition in our house, I made and decorated the birthday cake.
I was finding it a challenge to decide what culinary creation I was going to present, and googled cakes with a nursery rhyme theme.  Up came thousands!  Mostly which were quite complex, and would require multiple days to complete.

Anyway, I went shopping to our local party supplies place, and hey presto! there was a design on a cake accessories box that was just perfect!  “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star” it would be.  So, gift number 1, thankyou universe for the inspiration!

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star Cake

I then visited our local grocery store to buy the remaining perishable items.  I walked a lap of the store, gathered some goods, and proceeded to the checkout.  Just as a reached the checkout another lady stepped in front of me with a couple of items in her arms.  No worries, I thought.  Then a gentleman arrived from our right and started up a conversation with the lady in front of me.  The queue ahead of her had progressed, but she did not move.  Instead she looked at me with an expression of ‘what are you doing here?’ directed toward me, which I thought was odd.  It also dawned on me that it is rather rare that there is ever a queue in this store, as it is a small store, and it certainly wasn’t a busy time of day.

I continued waiting patiently, hoping their conversation would be short-lived.  They kept talking.  I kept waiting.  And then…  The gentleman mentioned something about chocolate cake.

That was it!

I had forgotten something!

In my focus of designing the look of the cake, I had overlooked actually purchasing the supplies to make the cake part of the birthday cake!  Thankyou, thankyou, I thought!

His throw-away comment had been the exact thing I needed to hear, a comment that would save me a return trip to the store.  I felt so grateful for the synchronous comment, and even more grateful that I had noticed it in time to take action.

I turned around, collected the missing ingredients, proceeded to the checkout and all flowed beautifully again.  No line, no waiting, just ease and grace…

In hindsight I also realised that I had ‘coincidentally’ met 2 people earlier in the day whom I had been eager to chat with, and had ‘magically’ appeared at the same place and same time as me, allowing me to efficiently communicate with both of them.  It was a great day, and the party went beautifully today too; a happy birthday girl, lots of happy guests, and a cake that was appreciated and eagerly consumed.


So I’m wondering, when you have been blessed with a synchronous event that you knew was for your benefit?
I would love for you to leave me a comment and share your blessed moments too.

It just goes to show that you never really know that impact you are having on others, even a throw-away line can be helpful to someone you hadn’t even really noticed was there!
With love to you,

My own personal pep talk

  • Posted on October 18, 2011 at 5:54 pm

I fell down a hole today.
An emotional one.
The good news is that I am a warrior, and have the tools to climb back out!

It started with my daughter heading off to camp this morning, and processing the tears and bitter-sweet emotion of watching her leave for a fantastic adventure, knowing that the experience is exactly what she needs, but also feeling the sadness of there being a hole in the home for a couple of days.

I was also greeted with a number of parents from our school who congratulated me on the public thanks I received last night at our school’s presentation night.  I had chosen not to attend, so I was unaware of the fuss that had been made about me, but apparently the Principal of the school had used my achievement of Black Belt as an anecdote in one of her speeches.  This made me feel a little uncomfortable actually.

I have the ability to achieve many milestones in my life, and have often received the accolades for doing so.  Receiving thanks for the time and energy I donate to the school was gratefully received.  But having my achievement of being a Black Belt be so publicly exhibited made me feel uncomfortable.  Sure, I am proud of what I have achieved.  And yes, I am pleased that I can act as an inspiration to others.  However, a fear arose as well.

An hour or so later I went to my martial arts training, and discovered 3 new girls in our daytime class (an uncharacteristically large number for this class), and enjoyed the opportunity to be a role model for them.  I had a great time assisting them, one-on-one, using my skills to assist their growth.  It was a great class.  Then at the end of class our instructor mentioned that he may be away next week, and that he would like me, and a couple of the other high-ranking students, to share the responsibility for running the class in his absence.  And so again, the fear returned…

I chatted with one of my training partners about my reluctance to ‘be seen’ in this role, and realised that this fear was coming from past experiences, past environments from my childhood where the tall-poppy syndrome had been alive and well.  As a teenager I had learnt it was safer to play small, to be a quiet achiever, to hide my marks and thus, my magnificence.  And while I can now see things from a different perspective, knowing that I am in a different environment, and that playing small does a disservice to both me and those who miss out on my teachings, I still feel the emotion.  You see, I had no problem with sharing my knowledge one-on-one.  But doing it on a bigger scale, in front of the whole class, has unsettled me.

A couple of weeks ago, at Warrior Camp, I had the opportunity to change this.  I was in a supportive environment, with people who were willing to witness me owning my power, and accepting my greatness.  And I piked out.  I was scared.  I thought “If I really declare the truth of who I am, will these people still want to be my friends?”.  “Will they view me as blowing my own trumpet, and reject me?”.  I see quite a difference between being capable and using my talents and skills to help others, to actually verbalising them and letting others know that I accept the truth of my own abilities.  And so when asked to externalise the ‘beauty I see in myself’, I held back, I played small, I didn’t really give 100%.  And that is not like me.  🙂

You see, I DO know that I am capable of amazing things, and I express this by taking on responsibility, but shy away from the recognition.  Yes, secretly I want others to notice me, to acknowledge that I’ve done a great job, but really it is me who really needs to see it and appreciate it.  I need to practice owning it… and do so publicly.

This afternoon I have been reading a first draft of a fantastic new best-selling book that my friend has just finished writing.  I have been amazed at the parallels between her life and mine, especially in the emotions we have felt and patterns of giving away our power.  This afternoon I felt so grateful to have her book to highlight this to me.  And to help me take another step higher.

And so I sat down and gave myself a good pep talk. I acknowledged my fears, and listed my positives.  T. Harv Eker often says “what you focus on expands”, and I have direct experience of this being true.  You see, I do still have times where I fall down the pit of pity, but the time I spend down there is becoming less and less, as I have spent the last 5 years building up a repertoire of supportive beliefs.  I have learnt to change my focus and write a new story for my life.  And I have collected a great group of friends who revel in the times when I stand tall and shine brightly.  I feel so grateful to have such supportive souls around me.

So now, I choose to make up for the opportunity I missed a week ago.  I choose to accept who I am.  I choose to let go of the fear of rejection, and to celebrate myself, my life, and all those whom I have the privilege of spending time with.  And I choose to attract other people who will mirror that back to me, and I will allow that to be OK.

I realise that as I allow myself to shine, I also incidentally give permission for those around me to shine the truth of who they are.  And all I see is magnificence.

So I would like to complete the process that I started with Mark and say:
The beauty I see in myself is that I am:
– inspiring
– enchanting
– loving
– creative
– clever
– compassionate
– focused
– beautiful
– capable
– empathetic
– energetic
– giving
– generous
– intuitive
– powerful
– abundant
– committed
– trustworthy
– responsible
– a leader
– loved
– lovable

and I choose for it to be OK for others to see these things in me as well.  🙂

Infinite Love & Gratitude!

Assembling the warriors from a past life

  • Posted on October 13, 2011 at 1:46 pm

Last week while I was at Warrior Camp, I ran a very powerful LifeLine Session on myself, and I would like to take this opportunity to tell you about it.

For many years I have attracted people into my life who would promise to help with various tasks, and in the final moments before delivery would, for one reason or another, not be able to complete what they had committed to, leaving me to madly scramble and pick up the pieces generally without acknowledgement.  I am a “finisher” type of person.  When I commit to something, it happens.  And while I have created a lot of success for myself and others over the years with this determination, I have often felt the loneliness of being unsupported and the fatigue of carrying more than my share of the load for others.

Last week, however, my soul began a new story.  The script for my life has changed.  On one of the physcially challenging days, circumstances made it that I was fully supported by a fantastic team, and I was able to use my finished personality to lead the way and inspire others to complete the task for their own satisfaction.  But even more importantly for me, I received appreciation and recognition for following the way of the warrior – being and doing whatever it takes in the moment to keep moving towards the goal.

Throughout the activity of this and the previous day, I had connected with a group of guys, each on an individual basis at different times.  On completion of the grueling activity a small group from our larger team decided to have a swim in the pool.  How surprised I was when I realised that every one of the guys in the pool were the very same guys I had connected with throughout the 2 days of activities! I was the only girl with them for quite some time, and as I floated in the water I felt incredibly supported and grateful to have had the chance to meet each and every one of these beautiful souls.

Now at this camp I happened to have brought Deepak Chopra’s book “Synchro Destiny: Harnessing the infinite power of coincidence to create miracles”, which encourages his readers to notice the coincidences in our lives and to ask for their significance.  So I did!  In the pool I said a silent prayer, sent Infinite Love & Gratitude to each of the fellas and asked what the significance of me pulling this group together meant.

I got my answer the following morning around 4am, after having struggled with a challenge the night before which brought up fear about other parties not fully committing to their word.  The intention I set for the session was “I am fully supported always and in all ways, feeling free”.  When I ran the session I went back to an original occurrence from 376AD where I was a 17yy male who had been made responsible for protecting the younger children of my tribe, but had been unable to succeed in the heat of battle and instead watched them die in front of me.  I had the skills to protect myself, but had been unable to defend all the others.  The LifeLine Session revealed to me that I had unresolved grief from this incident, and that I had been holding this fear in my throat chakra (which interestingly had been the precise location that was being pushed by the particular night-time activity).  The situation had been creating a spiritual imbalance in my life, disconnecting me from my will power in relation to speaking my truth, and restricting the flow of energy through my large intestines (interestingly I had also only been able to eat watermelon for the previous day and half as my body rejected all other food).

It seemed to me that this group of guys in the pool were representing (or perhaps were the very same souls) of the younger warriors that I had been unable to protect in my past life.  As I processed the emotion of grief, and sent silent apologies to all those I had been unable to protect in 376AD, I felt an amazing energy return to my body and a peacefulness settle into my heart.  I felt that I was concluding and letting go of a situation that I had been carrying for over 1600 years, and I am much lighter without the energy of this experience.

I was also able to learn that my voice is a powerful force in allowing others the opportunity to learn and grow and embody their magnificence, and this is how I can write a new ending for other souls, and myself.

Remembering the light when the dark comes along

  • Posted on October 11, 2011 at 5:43 pm

Sitting outside watching the clouds pass by the full moon I had a realisation about the experiences of life.

In our life we have the opportunity to experience both the light and the dark, for without the contrasting element one cannot experience the depth of their magnificence.

I was sitting looking at the moon and many clouds were passing by.  Most were thin or wispy and a good amount of the light from the moon was still shining through.  The light would wax and wane as clouds of differing density passed by, and each moment was a new experience as the clouds made evolving patterns across the face of the moon.

Then suddenly along came a space, a void, a sacred opportunity for the moon to shine it fullness of light directly to me, unencumbered.  I was touched to have the privilege to see the full beauty of the moon for those fleeting moments.  And then the moment was gone.

Obscured by a very dark cloud, completely blocking the light, for a moment I was worried that the moon was gone.  But in my heart I still remembered the light, the incandescence that the moon reflects and knew that this was simply my viewing perspective, in this moment.  I also knew that although I may not see the moon constantly shining towards me, I can hold its presence in my heart because of the depth of the connection I received during those intense fleeting moments where I saw its full brilliance.  And eventually those dark clouds will move on and I will once again be bathed in the light.

I see this as a metaphor for the experience I have just completed at Warrior Camp.  The staff and participants of T. Harv Eker’s Enlightened Warrior Training Camp created such a safe and empowering space for people to grow that I felt very comfortable in opening my heart, sharing my love and connecting deeply with those who journeyed through the week with me.

There was a moment of sadness when it came time to say goodbye, but I know that I carry the love of all these people in my heart, with me at all times, wherever I go.

It is fascinating to me just how deeply one can connect with others in such a short space of time.  I see it as being all about willingness, and the more willing one is to move past the fear, the quicker one builds compassion, trust and love for oneself and those around you.  It is never about the amount of time that is spent with a person that determines the level of connection, but rather your willingness to expose your heart and allow it to be touched by others.

A deep connection can occur in a fleeting moment, in connecting eye to eye, in sharing words from a song, in holding hands and receiving a heart-felt hug.

So I am feeling incredibly grateful to have experienced the depth of my power, and have embedded such sweet, sweet love within the core of my heart.