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Receiving the answers

  • Posted on November 29, 2011 at 1:59 pm

I love it when the universe answers my questions in unexpected ways!

A week or so ago I logged onto my computer, and on my home page of iGoogle I have a widget with my horoscope.  I often read it, though generally only pay passing regard for what it says.

On this day though, it mentioned that each day we make a difference, and that if we are interested in knowing some areas where we are making a difference but not consciously recognising our contribution, that to ask for this to be shown to us.  And so,…  I said a quick little prayer asking for some unrecognised area of the significance of my being to be highlighted to me.

Now it is interesting, because I am very familiar with the concept of Precession; that the activity that we think is our “life purpose” is often only a side-benefit to the real contribution we make to life (which is often not obvious to us).  In fact, here is one of my favourite quotes that I send in my signature at the end of every email:

“Your significance will forever remain obscure to you, but you may assume that you are fulfilling your purpose if you apply yourself to converting all your experience to the highest advantage of others” ~ R. Buckminster Fuller

 

A few hours later, I received a call from a friend who was processing the emotions of grief at the recent passing of her Auntie.  So I invited her to come over and spend the day with me.  We had a fun time chatting, surfing the web, and catching up on each other’s news.

Later that night, my friend Andrea invited me to attend our Goddess meetings together.  It had been quite a while since I had been to a meeting, and there were a number of new faces there.  At the beginning of the meeting I suddenly started feeling rather despondent, and mentioned this to the group, shedding some tears in the process.  I am so very blessed to be surrounded by such a wonderfully supportive group of women who were willing to acknowledge my emotion, and allow me to process and release it.   🙂

At the conclusion of the meeting, one of the other Goddesses came up to me, whom I’d never met before, and thanked me for being so open with my emotion!  She said that my openness made her feel safer in expressing her own feelings, and that having had the opportunity to also release her emotion, was now feeling much lighter than she had for some time…

However, it wasn’t until we were driving home again that I realised that I was receiving the answers to my question!  We driving in Andrea’s car, and she put on a song that was all about friendship, and I burst into tears!  I realised that her coming and spending the day with me, the comment from the Goddess and the song in the car were all answers to my question…  How cool!

You see, it is easy to acknowledge the deliberate things that we do to make a difference in others lives.  However, those things that we do when we are just being ourselves, are also having a positive influence…  Being a friend in the times of need, opening the space for heart feelings to be shared, and acknowledging the special roles we play in life are all significant contributions.

And as I was having this Aha! moment, we then drove past a billboard advertising the school that I often volunteer at, and which I do make a significant contribution for.

So for the second time that day, I sent out a prayer, this time of gratitude for the answers that came to me easily and effortlessly.   🙂

Helping or Hindering?

  • Posted on November 15, 2011 at 5:14 pm

I helped a worm today.  Well at least, that’s what I thought from my perspective…

You see, my beloved and I were out for a morning stroll with our dog, and I stepped over a worm on the track.  I took a few more steps and then decided to turn around and help him.

It was a warm morning, and the worm was laying the sun, covered in grit from having attempted to cross the gravel path we were walking on.  I perceived the worm as hot and exhausted, barely moving, and felt concerned that he had given up in his attempt to get to the other side.  So I picked him up, and transferred him into the cool grass.

I felt that I had done a good turn…

… until my husband pointed out that perhaps this crossing was the pinnacle of his life.  Perhaps crossing the path was the challenge of a lifetime for this worm, and I had just denied him his full experience.  Just as trying to make a rose open its petals too early actually prevents them from blooming, or like opening a cocoon to help the butterfly denies the strength-building exercise that the butterfly needs in order to fly.

Sometimes we need the experience of the struggle in order to grow into our greatness; to experience the full depth of our ability.

I don’t know, and likely won’t ever know, if my actions actually helped or hindered that worm and his soul growth.  I can only talk from my own perspective.  I experienced myself as helpful, caring and compassionate toward this creature.  Did I do that because I was guided by a higher calling to help this worm, or was it perhaps because there is a part of me yearning to be helped and cared for?  I’m not really sure.

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How interesting!  Halfway through writing this post, my friend Andrea dropped by to visit.  And she happened to mention that this morning she did the very same thing – rescuing 2 worms from hot pavement and placing them back in the grass!  How is that for synchronicity!

We had a discussion about this and I have concluded that as this was my experience, I get to decide what the meaning was for the incident.  I chose to experience myself as helpful, and as such that is what I choose to believe I was.  If the worm was meant to complete the crossing on his own then I hope his presence wouldn’t have entered my consciousness and he would have been able to go about his journey.

So I’m wondering; what are your thoughts?  Leave me a comment and expand my perspective…

Thanks for reading!

Amanda